Last nite... my parents, my adik n me.. when to umah cik lah.. my dad's adik. she was alone... her son, the last one among their siblings went out for awhile..

had a not such a bad time.. tho i noe, goin visiting to her place... we will always end up goin home late at nite.. kos theres just so much tt my parents and cik lah wanna tok abt..
but yesterday, was a bit diff i gues..

we talked alot about, how my parents were in the olden days.. my father used to be a bodybuilder.. (now i see y i wanna be one.. but only in the mind, but not in the body...)
my father used to act in theathres, became Hang Tuah and all.. my mom's brother became Hang Jebat.. haha.. how cool.. no wonder old people say, in the olden days, everybody knew each other... almost somhow they ended getting related to each other..
n the story goes on n on..

but... what saddens is when cik lah shared abt her life n children.. how its hard.. how much stress she had to endure..
for e.g. this last son, abg rahmat, who is already 34, but still not married yet.. it seems its hard for him to get a wife.. actually his not bad looking, very nice, filial n courteous man.. but heard tt he is abit choosy..

well this is due to d different examples of broken up families among relatives and friends that he see ard him.. he really wanna fine a good wife.. he's just too scared tt something bad happens after marriage..

he was saying, "it doesnt mean, a girl with tudung, have gone for hajj, n goes to the mosque regularly is honest.. it mite only happen infront of our eyes.. but behind? n afteron? who noes.."
Wow.. tts a real man.. basically, he just wanna stay with his mum, n make sure, the family he build will be able to help n take care of his mum..

What a son!

but the farnie part... his mum, is fine, n doesnt really care, she say she can take care of herself... hehe...

well... sets me thinking.. who is my future wife.. am i ready for all this? have i been thinking properly, how to set a good family.. am i prepared to go through the challenges?

God noes best..
i will continue trying n be ready..
insya Allah..